Technology Agnosticism

A strange feeling gripped me right now. I felt like sleeping, but I couldn’t. People’s faces keep flashing in my mind, even though I am wholly inconsequential to them. I realise that life as such is disgusting and morbid. Most people are in a self-imposed jungle, explicit verbal diarrhoea and a dissatisfactory reality.

When they go to sleep, their lives are probably full of what they organised , sold to somebody and thought about on that disgusting day. As years go by, I fail to realise how life has become boring and totally meaningless. People live only for the next day and for the love of God, making a fast buck.

When somebody was younger, probably me, there were not many gadgets and no technology. People apparently talked more to one another, watched less television and there was no internet. There were no vending machines and multiplexes. London a 100 years back was not multi-cultural as it is today. A Victorian gentleman would probably shit in his pants when he saw black men with white women or vice versa.

Not that today’s world is very drastically different. A more rabid form of technology-inspired hatred and virulence is gaining ground. No I do not want to sound pessimistic but in a networked, well-informed world, residual hatred is growing faster. As I stood under a tree doubting the story of Maharashtra’s great saint Tukaram going to heaven three times and coming back, a strange thought hit me.

I love my country as it has a history of free thought and liberalism to experiment. As I meet three brainwashed people from a country to the West of India in a deserted garden close to my university campus brainwashed in the name of ……(no I will not blaspheme), I am prone to philosophise. Why do these people not have the intellectual ability to accept any other thought pattern than something apparently revealed in a flight of fancy to a gentleman who was a dreamer in a distant land.

Long years ago, as I visited the grave of a holy man in Aurangabad, I felt that this person had accumulated some good “karma” when he took the long journey to a country in the Middle East. Where is life today? My few years covering technology made me fancy this word: technology agnosticism. This was used like a sword by many people in countless presentations. I loved covering this beat except for the people I had to meet in office and have to meet till the present day. Today, I saw a man with no feet, he was disgusting and he was from a country which deserved to be crushed. (Hey I’m in London, close to Wembley).

So, after hating relativity and moral science,one of my favourite subjects in school- Holy Family(apart from me nobody was serious enough to listen to that class), I go to sleep. If somebody reads this, I hope it did not make any sense to you. (I want somebody from my school to read this blog or if some other …..reads it, empathise/try to connect with my feelings – I know you have girlfriends, jobs and sniping/b**,jibes to do)

(P.S. The rest of my life I will watch American TV to stay happy – it did keep me happy in my adult lonely life in my own house in India)

This was a long verbose blog which in my strange imagination, I believe a lot of people are reading. Many people did not even understand what I meant. And I am trying to use active words.